Let the Prayers Begin.... or continue :)

My surgery is 5 days away.... double mastecomy. Nervous? yep. Looking forward to it? Nope.. Looking forward to getting this nasty cancer OUT of my body... YES!!!!!

My surgery is this Friday, June 1st @ 8:30 a.m. I will prob. be in the hospital for 3 days, then from what I hear it's pretty rough for the first week, but then the recovery starts...

I am also praying for "clear margins" around the cancer so I won't have to do radiation therapy... which is every day, 5 days a week for 6 weeks (not fun).

I love you all... and I LOVE the support and prayers.

This has been a LOOOOOOOOOOOng 9 months of our lives......we are all ready for healing and a cancer free existance!!!

Blessings to you today,

:) Shanda :)

HOME FINALLY!!!!

I was in the hospital for 20 days straight...2 in the ICU where they wanted to do a spinal tap because they thought I had menengitis. I was on so many drugs I kept refusing the spinal tap, and needless to say the ICU staff did not like me very much. I am so thankful and glad to be home. I am very weak, and I have to force myself to eat and drink. I prob. only eat about 400 calories a day. I have lost 15lbs in 20 days and I feel so sick. I honestly feel sicker now then when I was going through chemo. My surgery has been cancelled twice because I am just so weak, so the new date is June 1st. My mom will be coming down to help and I know I have help through my friends and church family.

I am ready for this trial/battle to end. I had a "panic attack" yesterday and almost had to call 911. I am so sick and tired and overwhelemed. Three of my pastor's from my church came over to anoint me with oil and prayed over me for God's healing. It's been 8 months now, and it looks like I have 3-5 more months to go. I am just so tired, in spirit and soul and health.

Please pray for my appitite to increase, and for my children to have peace, they have been very upset these last few weeks, and with my surgery next week, in their eyes everytime I go into the hospital I stay forever.

I love you all!!

:) Shanda :)