My baby :)

My baby kitty.... whom I have had for almost 14 years!! He sleeps with me every night, and all the nights I was in the hospital he would cry... yes....cry. He's such a sweetie peetie :) :). Animals are such a blessing. Thank you Lord for my Socks!!!!

Death

DEATH~
WHAT A WONDERFUL WAY TO EXPLAIN IT !!!!!
A sick man turned to his doctor, as he was preparing to leave the examination room and said, "Doctor, I am afraid to die.
Tell me what lies on the other side."
Very quietly, the doctor said, "I don't know."
"You don't know?
You, a Christian man, do not know what is on the other side?"
The doctor was holding the handle of the door;
on the other side came a sound of scratching and whining,
and as he opened the door,
a dog sprang into the room

and leaped on him with an eager show of gladness.
Turning to the patient, the doctor said,

"Did you notice my dog?

He's never been in this room before. He didn't know what was inside.
He knew nothing except that his master was here,
and when the door opened, he sprang in without fear.

I know little of what is on the other side of death,
but I do know one thing...
I know my Master is there and that is enough."

Being Still

Be still, my soul, The Lord is on your side.

Bare patiently, the cross of grief or pain,

Leave too your God, to order and provide.

In every change He faithful will remain,

Be still, my soul, Your best your hevenly friend,

Through thorny waves leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul, Your God will under take.

To guide the future as he has the past

Your hope your confidence let nothing shake

Or now misterious shall be bright at last

Be still, my soul,

The waves and winds still know His voice who ruled them

While he lived below

Be still, my soul,

Be still, my soul, Be still.

Be still, my soul by Ginny Owens

A new look :)

A million miles away from anything familiar a thousand places that I'd rather be

So I choke back the tears and try to find the bright side

Though I find it hard to see though all my suffering

In my heart I know your plan is so much bigger but this small part is all that I can see and I beleive you havn't left me here to wander

Still I can't help but ponder where you're leading me
(chorus) and I ask why this road why this way and this load

Tell me how far must I go til I see ...til I know why this road

A million miles away from anything familiar what was it like to be so far from home though you came in love the world misunderstood you there must have been some days when you felt so alone

But you endured, because ther was joy before you joy that came because you sacrificed

Since you gave yourself just to spend forever with me surely I can trust you'll lead me through my darkest times when I ask why....

(chorus) From here I can't see why you'd choose this path for me but I don't have to understand to beleive that you know why, this road why this way and this load you know how far I must go tile I see til I know why this road

(This Road by Ginny Owens)

I have always prided myself on my long thick beautiful hair.... in little women when Jo's cuts her hair off for $$$$ to help her mother go see thier sick father, her little sister says "Jo, your one beauty". Sometimes I have felt that way, my hair had made me feel beautiful. But I have learned that losing hair is much better in the long run than losing your life. I don't understand why the Lord would have me step through each day this last year, why I have to have this short hair, the scars, the pain, the needles, the vomiting, the fatigue, the suffering. My children don't understand and sometimes I don't either. What I do understand is I have a God who cares about me and loves me more than I can even dream, and he has a future for me that is amazing!! My life means more now than it ever has, and every day is a precious gift from my heavenly father. I love you Lord Jesus, God, my provider, my hope and my life!!!

Team Yenglin!!!

Time to do the dishes :) :). I am a blessed mother... my children actually fight to clean the house/scrub the tub or toliet and do dishes. So everyone is involved during dish time. Yes, I have a dishwasher, but I don't wash anything plastic, or any of my pans just plates, silverware and that kind of stuff. After dishes I think we're going to watch a movie.. Shaggy Dog. I cancelled the cable this week, my mom accidently mowed over the cable while mowing the lawn and I figure it's summertime anyway, who needs to waste any money on cable, I'd rather spend it on air conditioning :). Our new fun thing to do is to go to the local spray park, which I think we have been to everyday this week. I'll post some pictures of our next adventure to try to cool off from this hot weather.

Cancer women (me) seems to be getting a much needed break from treatment. I have been working on my tan, and spending lots of time with my children :). Rumor has it when I start radiation I have to stay out of the sun??? Not sure if that's true or not, I am sure my Dr. will tell me. With radiation right around the corner, I am making the most of my energy and my freedome from being "cancer patient" God is Good!!! All the time :).

I hope your having a wonderful day/night and thanks for checking up on our family.

Blessings!! :) Shanda :)

Prayer

Dear Lord, I thank You for this day.
I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You. Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart. Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak... Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others.
I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way. I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don't know You intimately. I pray for those that don't believe. But I thank you that I believe. I believe that God changes people and God changes things. I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met. I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees it.
AMEN!!!

Summer Fun :)

Summer fun... no words needed in this entry, God's goodness just radiates from my 4 amazing children!!

Have a Blessed day today

:) Shanda :)