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A million miles away from anything familiar a thousand places that I'd rather be

So I choke back the tears and try to find the bright side

Though I find it hard to see though all my suffering

In my heart I know your plan is so much bigger but this small part is all that I can see and I beleive you havn't left me here to wander

Still I can't help but ponder where you're leading me
(chorus) and I ask why this road why this way and this load

Tell me how far must I go til I see ...til I know why this road

A million miles away from anything familiar what was it like to be so far from home though you came in love the world misunderstood you there must have been some days when you felt so alone

But you endured, because ther was joy before you joy that came because you sacrificed

Since you gave yourself just to spend forever with me surely I can trust you'll lead me through my darkest times when I ask why....

(chorus) From here I can't see why you'd choose this path for me but I don't have to understand to beleive that you know why, this road why this way and this load you know how far I must go tile I see til I know why this road

(This Road by Ginny Owens)

I have always prided myself on my long thick beautiful hair.... in little women when Jo's cuts her hair off for $$$$ to help her mother go see thier sick father, her little sister says "Jo, your one beauty". Sometimes I have felt that way, my hair had made me feel beautiful. But I have learned that losing hair is much better in the long run than losing your life. I don't understand why the Lord would have me step through each day this last year, why I have to have this short hair, the scars, the pain, the needles, the vomiting, the fatigue, the suffering. My children don't understand and sometimes I don't either. What I do understand is I have a God who cares about me and loves me more than I can even dream, and he has a future for me that is amazing!! My life means more now than it ever has, and every day is a precious gift from my heavenly father. I love you Lord Jesus, God, my provider, my hope and my life!!!