WHY??

Why does life have to be so stinking difficult so much of the time?? The bible was right when it tells us that we will go through many trials in this world.. I think I've met my limit of trials, and I'm only 36 years old!!!!! God & my children are the only reason I am alive right now, please pray for me to make it through school.. it's very difficult (It's a 2 yr. program smashed into 10 months)!!!

Thanks for all your prayers!!

Blessings,

Shanda

Serious Matters!!!

I support an orphanage in Africa, Sudan, check out their website

www.boyerspond.com

they help children like this every day!!!

Please Pray for my son Tyler

I keep listening to this song, thinking everything's going to be o.k with Tyler, but each time he comes home from Havenwyck, he just last's a shorter and shorter amount of time... Please pray for his recovery, and that he can deal with the fact that no matter how bad he is, he will NEVER live with his biological parents, that's what he thinks, if he's bad enough, if he missbehaves enough, I'll just give him up and he can go live with his bio-parents, but that's not the way it works!!

Thanks, Shanda

Serious Matters!!!

Back from our first show and I'm finished with School!!!

We just got back Sunday night around midnight because we blew out a tire in OH on our way home, it was pretty scarey and I believe the Lord totally protected us from getting into a car accident!!! It was costly, after calling my insurance company and finding out I don't have road side assistance (which annyoy's me because I totally remember asking for that when I got the policy!!! I have $1500 in dectuable's to pay for damage to the RV. 3 different claims for the tire, Tristan decided to get angry and break out one of the RV windows!!! and I backed into a wooden pole and practically ripped off my back bumper!!! So all in all, I ended up losing money at the show, because any profit needs to be spent on fixing the RV. What Tristan does not realize is all this damage he is doing, he WILL pay me back when he gets his first job when he's 14...it's adding up quickly!!!!

I did my final today in my stinking philosophy class. I got a 55... probally the lowest grade I've ever recieved. I am sure part of that was because I missed 2 classes last week. I will hopefully end up with a C in the class which I think will be ok, because I have to have a 3.5 OVERALL entering nursing school and I still have about 6 classes to take before applying to the program. So please pray for good grades from now on!!!

Well, gotta run, we are at the libaray and my children want to leave!!

Blessings to all of you!

love,

Shanda

A few weeks until I'm done with my class!!

I am almost done with my class, I only have 2 more technical days left, as I will miss all week next week due to our show in PA that we are doing. I'm not doing so great, school is much harder now that I am older, you would think it would be easier but I have been working like crazy (I've worked more in the past 2 weeks than the last 2 months combined) And I am missing the last 2 classes before the final exam, which I'll have all of one day to study for (if I'm lucky). And it's a philosophy class so it's pretty complicated anyway!!!! So please pray that I ROCK on the final, that's 30% of our grade, and that my professor likes my paper that I turn in tommorow!! (That's 10% of my grade. I got a C plus on the last exam, and I didn't do so well on the last exam that I took last class.. I'm hoping for at least a B!!! I need a B in the class for my nursing pre-req's so it would totally suck to have to take the class all over again!!! URG!!!! Maybe I should have waited until the Fall Semester, URG!!!!

Yeah, please pray for safety and GREAT sales at our first show next week, it's ususally my best show of the year, and I usually do pretty well. It's about 600 miles away in PA so please pray for safety, that the children will behave etc... all the basic prayer requests :)

Love you all !!!

Blessings!!!

Shanda :O)

Update on Everyone!!

I went back to school last week... I have about 1 year of pre-reque's before I can even apply to the nursing program I want to attend so I started a summer class @ OCC the local community college, and I'm still working part time as a home health care aide, I have a wonderful patient currently, I think we will become great friends!!! All 4 of the children are going to school next year for the first time in their lives Bye bye home schooling life!!!! At least for the next 3 years!!! I think they are all looking forward to it, especially Katie because she needs help in her math I just cannot give her, so she gets it at school, and the structure of it helps us all I think, I'll just have to be a little bit more organized next year if I am taking a full load of classes and balancing raising 4 children "pressure's on"

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited at the thought of becoming a nurse, being a cancer survivor will give me so much more compassion for the patients I have, I am thinking about specializing in oncology. We'll see what the Lord has for me!!!!

Katie is flourshing in her pre-teen years, she's such a help to me, I couldn't do it all without her!!

Selena is catching up going to school 4 days per week, she was behind one year, but she's right on schedule for her age so I'm super proud of her!!!

Tyler is having some WAY before teen issues.. I've been having serious behavioral issues with him, he see's 2 counselor's per week and a psychatrist monthly. He was recently put on medication, which was switched from what my primary care Dr. put him on and he had a bad day at school today, so if your up for it, please remember him in your prayers!!

Tristan is following in his big brother's footsteps, but with a lot more damage, he throw's screaming fits and he broke out his bedroom window about a week ago. He was recently just put on medication also, so we'll see if that calms him down.

So my boys are out of control and my girls are perfect angels!!! Go figure!!

It's going to be REALLY interesting when they become teen agers.. Hopefully the boys will straighten up, or they will be off to boot camp!!!!

Well, gotta go get the boys in the shower then off to bed!!

Blessings,

Shanda

Amazing!!!

Here is the web address for the thing at church I was refering to earilier.

I hope you watch and are blessed as much as I was!!!

Blessings,

Shanda

http://www.hissalt.net/show/flashviewer.php?type=teaching&id=2533

Sharing an event

I went to an event at my church tonight that was life changing!!! As soon as they post it @ my church's website under the WOW ministries you gotta watch it!! www.hissalt.net

Share with me what ya think!!

Blessings,

Love,

Shanda

simple

Live every day with enjoyment - we don't know what tomorrow will give us.

My Favorite Reality TV show!!!

Health Issues'

Well, I've had some health issues the last few months. For one, I've gained almost 25 lbs in the last 6 months which is SO NOT COOL!!!!! I have been Soooooooooo tired, all I want to do is sleep... I've been diganosed (a while ago) with hypothroidism which makes you tired and then I'm pretty anemic also, which also makes you tired!!! And I have not been working the past few weeks, home health care is so unstable.. assignments want you, then they don't then they close etc... so I have not been working, I actually have more energy when I work, I think I feel more productive like I'm actually contrubuting to society in some strange way like home schooling 4 VERY active children isn't constructive enough. Well, I had my one year bone scan and CT scan and they picked up some unusually activity with my liver. At first I thought the cancer had come back and spread to my liver!!!! Which it did'nt my oncologist called me personally and told me there were "spot's" on my liver, but no cancer detected!! Thank God.. but what the heck were spots doing there, and how can I remove them!!! My liver enzymes were out of this world too, also putting me at great discomfort. I finally got in to see my primary care DR. this past Mon. and he was getting ready to put me into the hospitial and he checked my liver enzymes right there on the spot, and they were totally normal!!!!!!! Strange huh? Yeah, I think so. So I have to go in another week and get them checked again, and see if they are still normal (let's hope so) but my primary care Dr. said I had "fatty deposit's" on my liver which I guess is pretty common with our obese society and gaining almost 25 lbs in 6 months can give a person a "fatty liver". So no cancer (Thank you JESUS) but now we have a fatty liver to deal with. I've been eating a lot of salad's latley. :)

More on the health situation later :)

Good night!!

Sports

With 4 children and 4 different interest's I'm so glad my church which is only 1 mile away has a program for them to be involved in, the boys play basketball, Selena Cheer's and Katie helps me at the concession stand :) WOO HOO!!!

Happy Birthday Baby Tristan!!!

I can't believe my little "baby" ( I picked him up from the hospitial as a newborn weighing just 6 lbs) turned 8 this past week!!!!

Wow Does time ever fly by!!

He's so precious, he wrote me a letter the next day and put it on my nightstand so I would see it when I got up "I love you mom, I had a good birthday yesterday" and he drew me a picture!!! What a sweetheart :)

My Baby!!!!

R.I.P SOCKS 1993-FEB. 08, 2008

My beloved Socks died last Sunday (well technically 2 Sunday's ago, and it's taken me some time, and courage to share this with the world. I had him for 14 years, he slept with me every night of our lives together, and I knew I had cancer before any Dr. ever told me because he would not leave my side (literally, he even followed me to the bathroom. This is the cat that came and layed in a tub with me while I had a 105 temp in my early 20's (you know how much cats like water). He woke up on Sunday and could not walk, this happend once before and I took him to the vet and he was ok for a few more months, this time it was worse and he kept going to the bathroom on himself, so I'd give him a bath and tenderly blow dry him and I knew it was time to put him down, so I called the MI humane society which gave me numbers of places that are open on Sunday's. I called the first one, and they said it would be an emergency charge of $89. through tears, I told them I could not afford it, and the tech talked to the vet and they said they would do it free of charge. So I loaded him up into the van in a towel and held him the entire drive. He stopped breathing about 10 min. before we got to the vet, so he died in my arms. AT least I did'nt have to put him down, he died naturally very peacefully, I was petting him the entire time.

I know pet owners will feel my sorrow that I am feeling, and he was a special little guy, like I said before he slept with me every night, every night I was in the hospitial with cancer he would meow and meow and drive everyone nuts at nights, because he missed me. I could write stories all day long about that baby kitty who brightened my life for all those years!! I hope he's in heaven waiting for me :). God dosen't say anything in the Bible about pets going to heaven when they die, but I know God loves me and knows how much I loved Socks.

I have more pictures of him, but they are on my lap-top and going to have to wait until I go to the library to upload them.

Happy Valentines Day!!!

To all the people that have a spouse out there, I hope you had a wonderful valentines day today, me being single I went out to dinner with a good girlfriend :).

I just wanted to say hello, I'm doing good and looking for work (again). Blessings to you tonight,

:) Shanda :)

Too Funny

Happy 11th Birthday to Selena!!!!

Happy Birthday to my VERY special daughter Selena!!!!

I hope she enjoy's shopping with the $50 I gave her, her $11. from Grandma and Grandpa and $10 from the Bye Family!!!

We all love her very much :) :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy New Year to all of you out their reading this, ours has been a blessed one, as God has seen to it that all our needs have been met this year. I am currently unemployed, I am employed at a home health care place, but I'm between assignments currenty, and I am waiting to take my National Regsistry Test for my EMT liscense, but no one local is hiring, I may have to go to Detroit to go find a job!!!! Hopefully I won't have to do that, but I need to be working!!! I have an ARM on My Mortgage that will reach out in April of 2010, and I need to make a minium of 50K this year in order to refinace my house, so I need to work as much as possible before I start school in September!!!!!

Please pray that the Lord will give me a full time job asap!!!

Thanks and Blessings to you!!

:) Shanda :)